I Survived :-)

I had my IUD insertion done yesterday while being put to sleep and it was amazing. Amazing cause I don't remember a thing! When I got to the hospital everything went too fast that Naty didn't even make it till after the procedure was done. The nurse came and gave me a shot of something to make me happy and boy did it! So on my way to the OR I seen Dr. Tsai and he hangs over me and says, "you wanna see the IUD?" and I say yeah, so he shows me and all I can see is the words MIRENA!!!!! NOOOOOOOO In my head for a quick second I think...hmmmm...maybe he's just showing me that cause it's a sample or something well...Thank God I say, "is that the one you're inserting in me?" and he says, "Yeah". I started getting really out of it and I say, "that's not the one I wanted!" This is the first time I was disappointed with him cause he says, "wait! we've talked about this on several occasions and this is the one you said you wanted," then he askes the nurse, "wait did you give her the medication already?" and he's like DAMMIT! I can see it all over his face. He was like super annoyed and wanted to jump on me, I just didn't say anything cause I didn't really have the strength and then he says, "oh wait! yeah you're right Marlene you did want the Paragard, Ok I'll put that" and it was OVER!!! I woke up who knows how long after with a pain in my throat. I wanted to cough it out so bad and I was talking out of my ass about school and how I did this so I can finish and if I wanted kids later I can always get it out! OMG! poor nurse was prob. like, STFU already! hah! after the medication started wearing off I started thinking to myself, WHAT AN IDIOT! hahahahaha I can't believe I shared my whole life with these people that could prob. care less! hahahaha So after I was very aware I seen my nurse sitting right next to me and she was soooooooooooo cool. We hit it off imediately and we were messing around and laughing at everything and anything. Then when Naty walked in, it was over! they hit it off and were talking about the history of the hospital and other stuff. She told me if I hit it big in Vegas to remember her. So Naty wheels me out and I'm still feeling LOOPY but super hungry. So we hit up Sizzler and eat like beasts kings, it was soooooo YUMMY. We ate and had a good conversation since we didn't have kids around (oh BTW, the kids were with my MIL!) and right after we went to my catechism class and I felt like passing out in there. I kept strong and got through it and then we picked up the kids and came home.
I've been having slight bleeding but nothing bad and hardly any pain so I'm very happy. Nurse said do nothing for 2 days and no sex for a week, I had to be dilated so thats why. The instrument they use usually can open you up but I didn't budge so thats why the restrictions. But everything is fine and I pray it doesn't give me problems!

Thank You Bumbo!

I really wanted a Bumbo for Nate b/c I heard you can get a lot more done while they watch you. Well, "they" were all right! I put him on the countertop while washing dishes, then I sat him in the bathroom next to me while I cleaned it, then I sat him on the Laund. Room countertop while I folded clothes. He just stared at me the whole time and was getting tired. I think he's using alot more muscles trying to stay up so it's a workout for him cause when I took him out he was yawning and scratching his eyes. I fed him and he's totally knocked out right now. I can't wait till I can feed him in it, LOL.

One more thing, if you really want one look on craigslist first. I got a used one with a tray that sells for $50 at target and got this one for $20 and it was practically brand new. I just went over it with lysol bacterial wipes and then a wash rag.

3 Month Postpartum (all about ME!)

Ok, I thought I'd be selfish for a bit and talk about myself :-)

It's been 3 months since having the little turkey and I feel great. I think alot of it has to do with my weight loss. I'm now down.......35 lbs. from my highest weight (before I gave birth) and that puts me at about 21 lbs. less than I was Pre-pregnancy. In the beginning I wasn't eating much, mostly cause I was too busy and I had no appetite. Then I got stuck at the same weight for a long time and decided to do something about it and started the Weight Watcher's Breastfeeding Program. I would get 25 points if I wasn't BF-ing but since I am I get 35 pts. It seems like a lot BUT I'm still hungry cause Nate takes alot from me. I read somewhere that for each ounce you make you burn 20 calories and I think he's eating about 4 ounces every 2-3 hours right now.

As for my surgery I feel completely healed but know in reality that I'm not and should still take it easy. Dr. Tsai couldn't believe how great I healed on the outside and said he couldn't even see a scar. I don't think I ever posted about my incision on here but it was clear across my bottom stomach, from one end to the next, it was awful. One day after coming home from the hospital I decided to look down there and to my great surprise I had staples from one end to the other, I was horrified and I think I even cried. I was horrified by my black stomach, it was so bruised that it looked DEAD. I remember Dr. Tsai telling me that I had alot of bruising but didn't think it was this bad. He said it was from the D&C cause the doctor had to push on my stomach to get everything out...OUCH (thank God they put me to sleep!). I don't remember the exact number but Naty counted about 17 staples but when I got them out the nurse said I had about 20! that's alot.

When I got home from the hospital I didn't relax like I should have. I was giving others advice about not doing too much and how they shouldn't worry about house duties.......but I didn't take my own advice, once again. I really thought I would be able to control myself and rest but it was so hard. I was going daily to Naty's parents new house and hauling Nathaniel back and forth. I was up and down and even went shopping the day after I got home from the hospital. I could NOT stay still. I'm not a sitting around type person, I get too antsy and need to do something. I did take medicine a little longer than my previous c-sections but that was expected with a bigger incision that I didn't know about.

So now, 3 months later, I feel amazing and blame it all on weight loss. I honestly believe that if I didn't lose this much weight I would be miserable still. I'd probably be needing the occasional motrin for my back or stomach (scar tissue) but I don't feel any of that.

Again, I don't think I mentioned it here but I tried getting an IUD inserted when I went for my 6 week PP appt. and it was unsuccessful. It was way too painful and my doctor called off the procedure after I was shaking and crying from the pain. He said he'd surgically insert it if I wanted so I said YES and I have a surgery date for Nov. 17th. Please say a little prayer for me since I'll be put under, it's nothing major but the being put to sleep part is scary. Which brings me to another thing I forgot to mention, after talking with Dr. Tsai he said my uterus is healthy enough to carry another baby and said I can do that if I wanted in the future. Who knows?!? I want another baby, I want TONS but I've got to focus on the ones we have now. They deserve all of our attention and sometimes it's hard to give it to them 3 so maybe in the future if we get brave enough we might have 1 more and that will be it. I always wanted 4 children but Naty said he's happy already. I'm not 100% on what our decision is but only time will tell.

You know what's the strangest thing?!?!? I don't remember being pregnant w/Nate. I remember it wasn't bad till the last weeks. It's so weird that it just happened and it's completely out of my head already. I think a week after I had him I felt this way. I don't remember my belly, the moving, anything. I know I had a big belly and the baby moved but I just don't remember my belly popping out while I sat around or walked around, its really weird. I even went back in my posts to read and it made me feel alot better cause I hate not remembering. I'm so glad I did this blog, I really need to save it somewhere so I never lose this. It's the only way I can go back and remember...ok I'm getting choked up. I better stop.


My Mom and Nathaniel

3 Months :)

Little Nate is growing so fast, I think he's skipping 3-6 month clothes and heading straight for the 6-9 monthers. He's a smart lil cookie and knows what he wants and when he doesn't get it, he makes sure he's heard when he's screaming his head off! He's my high maintenance little boy, Bubbs and Audrey were never this needy and I think it has alot to do with BF-ing. Naty says he just wants to be next to his milk jugs.

At three months you or (you're):
1) still being BF'd.
2) eating on demand
3) taking lil cat naps throughout the day.
4) sleeping at 8pm, wake at 3am to eat go back to sleep and up at 7am.
5) love your bro and sis and look for them.
6) know and love your daddy.
7) starting to giggle a little.
8) eat and play with your hands (they stink all the time too!).
9) wearing a size 3-6 months but will soon grow out of those.
10) wearing a size 2 diaper and it's a lil big.
11) smiling tons!
12) liking your swing a lot more.
13) loving your vibrating rocker chair (for short 20 mins).
14) still taking baths in the BR sink.
15) still sleeping with mama and occasionally in your bassinet.
16) still my lil fart machine :-)